Question marks.

Sometimes I like to be left alone.

"What do I want?" A question I often ask myself towards many things that occur in my everyday life. "What is my purpose in doing this and that", "why am I even here" and "I don't understand myself, why am I like this?" Sometimes I get so confuse with the decisions that I make. Today, I went home alone. My friend told me to join her but I declined but deep down I really wish for someone to accompany me. So yeah, why I do things opposite to what my heart wants? 

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Sometimes it gets lonely, but I know that it's only a matter of mind perception. –Sonny (Sonny With A Chance)  #disneywords

I feel lonely. Mad lonely. It never stops and I have to deal with it.

Does anyone feel the same as me too? It happens once in a blue moon, not too often but still... when I'm feeling extra lonely on that day, my mood just plunges and I can't seem to smile brightly anymore. But ohwell I've gotta think positively, cause there're so many things in life we can be happy about. (:

Cranky.

Ever had that moment when everything just seem so wrong, not even the smallest thing goes your way and it's like even happy thoughts can't cheer you up? I'm feeling that way now. Worse still, there're no happy thoughts for me to think of.

I don't know why. 

My day started well, but it did not end well... I think. My throat hurts terribly, there's ulcer on my tongue, I got "scam" today and overspent, two RJ is waiting for me, the burden that I've to retake a module (Java), there's school tomorrow, 2 "C" for daily grade alr, low self-esteem all of a sudden. *huge sighs* And I am here still blogging. 

Just wanna rant here and release some of my frustrations. Hope I'll feel better in a couple of hours time.