(Circular Quay, 16th June 2016)
I wanted to write somewhere but don't want anybody to question or comfort me because I can't explain as it's just me being... I can't put it to words. Anyway so I ended up here.
I just cried. And it's so weird. This is the first after almost half a year I think? Many reasons to it but ultimately it's because of insecurities? Inferiorities? I'm not sure. Girls have plenty of issues, or at least me :)
But anyway it was nothing much. I'm feeling so much better now, almost back to my usual self and almost over the "sad period" (I don't even know whether was I really sad lol). Hmm I think I can't stay happy for long haha my default has always been slightly less than happy since forever.
Because I have this impression that you can't be happy forever? It sucks even more when you're at the happiest moment and to drop(?) from there.... Oh it just sucks.
So yeah, I try to not feel too happy or rather exhilarated because I absolutely hate that "drop". At least if I'm slightly less happier, that "drop" from there wouldn't be that much of an impact when something bad happens. Understand?