I am feeling kind of down right now because of this particular interview which I don't know whether should I give it a try a not. It's coming soon and I just got to know the date yesterday. The thing is, I don't know whether should I go or try next time instead because I don't think I am really prepared for this?
Actually deep down I know this is just an excuse.. What I am really afraid of is something else. I keep telling myself there's no harm trying. I can just "test the water" first since I can retry if I fail and even if I were to get humiliated it would be alright BUT another part of me will think about failure and how disappointed I will be if I did not make it. I really hate feeling disappointed ):
I am sorry to keep you guys in suspense but I don't want to write here what the interview is about.
Have been hearing all these: "YOU NEVER KNOW WHAT MIGHT HAPPEN" "NO HARM TRYING" "DON'T TRY = NO CHANCE". But I really.... argh I can't continue this anymore.
Right now I am thinking WAY TOO MUCH, the 'voice' inside my head just won't go away. Working for F1 tomorrow, at least I have something to distract me from all these thoughts.
Goodnight Xx.