Numbers.

So glad that I get to rest after working tomorrow as I don't have to work on weekends. The cuts on my fingers sting urgh. Anyway so what I do at work is to find stocks through their unique number and place them in a box. Yesterday was quite confusing because it's hard to search for that particular number among so many other numbers. Nevermind I think no one understands what I'm trying to explain here hahaha. 

A short post again heheh byebye xx.

Exhausted.

Just a quick update.

Though it's the holidays, I'm feeling even more tired now because of my starting-to-screw body clock. It's 12am now and I've to wake up at around 6hrs later. Yes I'm starting work tomorrow instead, dreading alil but at the thought of money, all the negative thoughts & dreads are put aside. Heading to bed now, goodnight.

Will be back soon to blog xoxo.

When being strong is the only option left.

RIP Kiko. 

Just yesterday morning, my cousin's 36 year old wife passed away. We were not exactly close, just chatted abit during the past CNY and during my sister's 21st birthday, she each of us a seashell bracelet. Went to her wake yesterday night and when I walked up to her coffin, she looks like she is sleeping soundly. I had this huge urge to wake her up but... I know nothing's gonna happen. She's not breathing anymore. 


Still contemplating on whether to go for the cremation. The wake was alright because she was just right there, with us. But now it's the cremation, she's leaving for good and I doubt I'll able to hold it in. At the same time, I want to send her off so how? :/

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Life's short. Give thanks to God that you manage to wake up to a new day every morning. Who knows when night comes you go to bed and then you'll 'sleep' forever. Cherish the people around you no matter who they are or how close you're to them because if you don't, I'm sure you are going to regret somehow. 

Havaianas.

*LOVES* 

Mum bought this for me at HK. ❤ 

Disappointed.

So many things, I'd high hopes. But the outcome wasn't what I'd expected. I know I shouldn't expect anything but I had faith then... all these happened. Now I need some time to sort my thoughts out and calm myself down. 

But at least I know I'll be fine someday, somehow.

I had so much hopes, I thought...

Wishful thinkings.

"Everything will be fine eventually." Really?

Those thoughts that abruptly appear in my mind, I can't escape I can't control them... I just can't stop thinking. I'm really fine but just once in awhile, I don't feel alright and I don't know why.

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Okayokay I'm feeling damn paranoid now. 

I'VE GAINED WEIGHT. YES IT'S A BIG THING TO ME AND I BELIEVE TO MOST GIRLS TOO. 

Plus I love food alot so..... howwwww?? ):

Give thanks.

Heart shape biscuit my grandfather bought.

Bangle from my mum. ♥

Yet another ulcer lying on my tongue torturing me whenever I'm eating. )): My friends know that I'm prone to ulcers because I keep complaining to them hahaha. But recently I've been reminding myself to drink plenty of water, hope this current ulcer will disappear soon.

Ate ALOT for the past few days, serious. Cause I don't eat breakfast, so I normally have 2 meals a day + many many snacks in between. It's the snacks that are fattening haha. For today I ate a packet of rice, 1 triangle piece of chiffon cake(idk how to describe the size), KFC for dinner, alil bit of rice & soup, 2 bbq pork ribs + half of the heart shape biscuit(above). Is this consider normal? 

Mundane.

Have not done a proper post for a really long time. Camera's quality went haywire, photos are all blurred so now I only take pictures using itouch. Anyway recently I did not go anywhere interesting or eat yummy food. 

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-Went to granny's church in the morning.

-Lunch at Ikea with grandparents and aunt.

-Reached home at night and skyped with parents & elder sister. They bought havaianas for the whole family! So now my parents, sisters and I all have havaianas!! Heheh so happy. ^^ 

-Running man.

So that's basically what I did yesterday. 

Hope the next time I blog I'll have something interesting to share, goodbye.

Rash decision.

Hate how guilty I am feeling right now. When I am mad, I make a rash decision, do something I will regret and ponder on it later on. Then I will start to feel guilty because of what I did. It happened just now and now I am having a war inside with myself. Keep thinking over and over about the incident and what makes me guilty the most is.... secret. Don't want anybody to know what I'm thinking so I'm not going to talk about what it is.

Anyway, staying over at my granny's house this Saturday. Hope it will be fun. And Bon voyage to my family who are flying to HK.

Keychains.

Been wanting keychains for a very long time and I finally got it!! The pink one is from Japan, gift from my aunt who went to US and got it when transiting in Japan. Orange keychain is from my elder sister's friend who got it at HK disneyland!! Everybody's been flying here and there except me. ): Family going HK without me and second sis next week because we have school. ): 

Question marks.

Sometimes I like to be left alone.

"What do I want?" A question I often ask myself towards many things that occur in my everyday life. "What is my purpose in doing this and that", "why am I even here" and "I don't understand myself, why am I like this?" Sometimes I get so confuse with the decisions that I make. Today, I went home alone. My friend told me to join her but I declined but deep down I really wish for someone to accompany me. So yeah, why I do things opposite to what my heart wants? 

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Sometimes it gets lonely, but I know that it's only a matter of mind perception. –Sonny (Sonny With A Chance)  #disneywords

I feel lonely. Mad lonely. It never stops and I have to deal with it.

Does anyone feel the same as me too? It happens once in a blue moon, not too often but still... when I'm feeling extra lonely on that day, my mood just plunges and I can't seem to smile brightly anymore. But ohwell I've gotta think positively, cause there're so many things in life we can be happy about. (:

Cranky.

Ever had that moment when everything just seem so wrong, not even the smallest thing goes your way and it's like even happy thoughts can't cheer you up? I'm feeling that way now. Worse still, there're no happy thoughts for me to think of.

I don't know why. 

My day started well, but it did not end well... I think. My throat hurts terribly, there's ulcer on my tongue, I got "scam" today and overspent, two RJ is waiting for me, the burden that I've to retake a module (Java), there's school tomorrow, 2 "C" for daily grade alr, low self-esteem all of a sudden. *huge sighs* And I am here still blogging. 

Just wanna rant here and release some of my frustrations. Hope I'll feel better in a couple of hours time.